Growing up with a content family where my father was always optimistic and encouraging, I never imagined that he would leave us that way. I aim to document the psychological burden I experienced from my father's suicide that took place within what was my most comfortable space - my own home. The pain and fear that I feel now have become unbearable because everything that exists in the house reminds me of the ever-haunting scene that I witnessed a year ago in my parents' bathroom. Through therapy, I was told that the most effective way to overcome my anxiety of being at home was to confront it, despite the few moments when fear struck and I had to stop photographing. Therefore, this series acts as a remedy and part of my healing process in which I spend some time each day quietly observing and photographing the details of my home that often trigger my inner sense of fear.

          I am not the only one affected. The drastic change at home has also impacted my mother's well being. It worries me because of her significant weight loss and she began to overly rely on her phone as escapism from the negative energy at home ever since the incident. While the stories these photographs tell explore the realities of dolefulness and solitude, they also portray the disconnection between my mother and me. We have begun to avoid sharing how we are coping with the situation simply because we do not want to worry each other. As a matter of fact, she did not even know I had gone to a therapist for help or about the existence of this series.

          As a daughter, I learned that my father's decision to end his life was to discontinue the pain he was in following his stroke. However, I also want to highlight to my audience that my father's action has negatively scarred the family emotionally and psychologically. Although living through the shock and experiencing the fear are the most difficult things I have ever endured, I still believe that there is always a lesson in the darkest of circumstances. Creating this series has definitely made me a stronger person and has given me a space for self-reflection.